in life today you have to update everything....yspace, face book(dont have) ,xanga. you have o ook at you e mail or check on any other website you have...it's so out rated ut yet i do it anyway bc i have no life outside of work and i am just simply bored....

On the bright side i might visit my cousin aimee so thatll be fun...even though my boss told me i might not have a job when i come back....

i just was looking in my basment over all the stuff still not unpacked from when i moved in november and i found a letter from an ex....saying how much he loved my and how he thinks its too the point where he loves me too much adin the etter it probablysays it t least 10 times .....im wondering now if he was trying to convince himself that there was real love out there because after him im not so sure it almost a year now that we have been broken up and sadley after him i have no life...and i do really think that if love does exist i do still love him and for a couple of months i said i hated him but the saying " theres a fine line btween love and hate" is really true... i think for those months i hated him because i loved him so much.....This note/ letter got me thinking then do people misuse love too much.... like i love my family and my puppy and im not saying misuse in that way...but with high-school relationships do they mis-use it n that way.....i bet if you asked someone to give  definition for complete true love they wouldnt know what to say... after being alone for almost a year you realize what it really is to love someone and it's hard to know that person you love/loved is with someone else...or that the person is lost...and i guess i cant even say loved because i know i still love him....even thought he might not think of i that way...anyways i guess they say it is better to have loved and lossed then to have never loved at all but i dont know which i preffer because i might have been fine now finding a letter from just a friend but sic i love now which i never really did before this person it harder than it seems....

oh well....

im done....

forget it...

....aMbEr...